Mental Repository (M.R.)

[zero_kanipan]

rave: we're back to 8 hour shifts come sunday.
rave: still have the fri-sat rest days. tho no more tuesday rest day.
rave/rant?: shorter work hours = less time to see her
rant: me all boohoos and drama. starting to be annoyed and disgusted at myself, but at the same time i know i'll go insane if i dont let stuff out ~.~

rant: annoying teammate seems to still be annoying. will prolly need to talk to him again. or maybe have him transferred to a different department.

[medusa0]

rant: me all boohoos and drama. starting to be annoyed and disgusted at myself, but at the same time i know i'll go insane if i dont let stuff out ~.~

rant: annoying teammate seems to still be annoying. will prolly need to talk to him again. or maybe have him transferred to a different department.

Seriously, get professional help, as this is sounds like a case of depression.

Even if you do hate your teammate, try not to be confrontational, as that tend to lead to all sorts of problems in the future.

Rave: First persistent snow: 10/25/2012

[zero_kanipan]

@medusa0
ive been to two shrinks in the past and i still have the prescriptions and meds. also, what im going through right now is nothing compared to what i went through when i went to them years back. went to them before with a situation similar to this and they brushed me off and told me to go out more, watch movies, and dont think about it, etc etc. nothing big. this is just pre-emptive supalpal blues XD

about the teammate, i dont hate him. however, he is starting to get on the nerves of other people again. even then, personality issues can be tolerated. the main problem with him is his performance is not that good, yet he acts as if he knows everything. to the point that he refuses to follow direct instructions or guidance. he insists that what little he knows is right. he's a trainee that resists training. even worse, he's bragging what he does to the other trainees, which in turn confuses them as to what the proper protocol is. if this isnt corrected early its going to lead to all sorts of problems in the future. the type that requires server rollbacks, and/or public apologies to players.

since i trained this new batch they're my responsibility. if they screw up, management is going to have my ass. i've already talked to him about his behavior before, but he seems to have forgotten all about it. im all for being friends with co-workers, but the job comes first. ika nga, "trabaho lang, walang personalan."

[HayWire]

Rant:
Midterms starting tomorrow -_-

Rant/Rave:
Most of them are the kind that you can't really study for. 8C

[NiX]

Need a new phone... too many choices.

[Goat]

Need a new phone... too many choices.

5110 is all you need.

[clonezero]

@zero: Really unsure as to how to comment on your current situation, but as someone who was also diagnosed with depression all I can say is do your best to not let the situation get to you. I hope for the best to you.

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2nd day in Malaysia done ...

so some stuff about the trip so far:

It took me the better part of my first day here to find out the relatively obvious fact that I should not be looking for anything related to pork.

I found out the existence of the double sausage mcmuffin ... it has eluded my efforts so far.

The Petronas Towers are okay to look at during the day, but during the night with the lights on it is a great sight in all fairness.

Traffic along with the city night-life is considerably uncommon. "Barren" comes to mind sometimes.

If the chicken rice you are eating taste like tinola, someone did something wrong.

Malaysia along with a good number of other countries are infested with Jano Gibbs. (according to several sources including an Egyptian national airline personnel dude we chatted with during a particularly scary gondola ride)

Speak in your native tongue, and use codenames.

Went to Genting aka the Malaysian version of Baguio, way more foggy. Gondola ride in the day is great, return ride with zero visibility and a busted lamp is ... scary ... *shiver*

Beef Bacon is very nice.

On second day went to some big mall that pretty much puts MoA to shame. Toy store barely had any

Our hotel room seems to be meant for honeymoon couples; the bathroom is separated from the bedroom by a GLASS WALL. Sure it has that fancy turn opaque on a switch button, but the lack of lockable doors, and the fact that a family of 7 of varying ages makes for a number of rather ... uncomfortable situations.

20 channels on a cable tv ... wtf?

[Serene]

5110 is all you need.

[clonezero]

At Singapore ... what is it with hotels and scandalous bathrooms?

And god is it expensive here ><.

[zero_kanipan]

@CZ
thanks for your concern. i'll get through this somehow.

also just for clarification, im not depressed as in clinically depressed or something that severe. this is rejection fallout, and losing a friend or something of that sort. while i know what to do with regards to her (give space, cool down, try to be friends again later down the road), i am having difficulty with my emotions/feelings/mushy drama stuff. my usual methods of recovery/coping are not working so well since, unlike previous situations, i see her at least four times a week at work. post-rejection and/or post-breakup*advice would be most welcome. at this point tho, please keep it to PMs.

*i know we never were an item so this isnt the right term. but it's either that or post-nolongerfriendssoourinteractionsarenonexistentorawkward.

rave: found another Tsuruya figure at Komikon. eighth one for my collection \o/ also got some various indie comics.
thought: is this a geek's/nerd's/weaboo's equivalent of retail therapy?
rant: there goes the money for the new shoes.

[HayWire]

Rant:
Did over 700+ reps of a certain exercise as punishment a while ago.

Rave:
I survived. It doesn't hurt as much as I expected it to. ...I'm prolly going to feel it in the morning <_<

Rave: Not tired (as in sleepy tired). Aka. I still have energy to study~

[Serene]

That sounded the same way when I bought my AC. ahaha.

[Moonlight_Raven]

my celfone's going to die soon ...damn where on earth will i find a not too expensive N8?


=^.^=

[NiX]

Heeey it's Alvin!

Hanap ka na lang sa Tipidcp ng used N8 or N9. They go for really cheap nowadays.

[RoninFang]

Rave:

Freelance Project Long term A ( had a meeting a client last Thursday for a freelance project)

basically client is a hobby-ist putting together a table top game if you've seen those Warhammer, Dungeon and Dragons Table Top Game Manual with all the text and those illustrations yeah something like that

client already has all the text written but he just needs the artworks/illustration na lng to be filled up
also suggested client and maybe a few 3d turnarounds to post in his blog just for the important historical pieces
and client liked the idea pero later on na un for now he needs the maps first

in case of revisions we'll just be talking via skype, payment through bank deposit much easier for both me and the client that way

Freelance Project online A

one of online freelance clients emailed me a simple job test to work on, if i nail it will be paid roughly 200+ dollars per texture...but the quality they need is...best way to put it anybody remember the game Vanquish?

client already has the 3d models...so textures na lng needed

and other freelance online projects yet to confirm…and one local na wala pa rin nabibigay kailan and what are the things needed to be done in 3d.... ho hmm

later job interview for Appsdigital
got another 2 invite for two other facebook groups Unity 3d developers and Indie Game Developers
so got 3 invites for 3 game dev facebook groups XD yey

in case your wondering...Unity is a name of a game engine

and one of the online clients freelancing for though pay will be after the game release
http://exmgames.com/

wala lng XD theyre fixing the website but jut wanted to show it ^^
:3

Rant:

What else a few pending fulltime applications
And informatics wala pa ba classes T_T