so fucking sick of people who keeps giving me the same fucking advice to move out. what?! you don't fucking think i fucking thought of that already?! do you have any idea of the dynamics in the house i fucking live in? me leaving is exactly the fucking thing the assholes want me to do so they can reign supreme; enslave and stress out mom until she dies from a heart attack; beat up and kill my niece because "that's just how they are when they get angry." i have plans to move out. i have plans to take mom and my niece with me when i do so, but it's gonna take a fucking long time. why? because instead of being out there looking for jobs, signing up with TESDA to get new skills, doing work from home stuff, im busy doing all the chores, and taking care of mom coz the assholes would do nothing to help and everything to antagonize everyone. my anxiety disorder that's caused me to fail each and every fucking interview didn't just pop out of nothing. it's the result of living with fucking assholes these past 20 years. it's the result of all the "help" and "advice" people who say move out give that actually stressed me out more than help. if you really want to fucking help, stop with the fucking advice and actually fucking do something. at the very least you can put a bullet between my eyes.

-enjoying training new sifu also yeah trainings getting harder bit by bit then again when one does get better does also means training gets harder, new drills etc etc aside the usual stuff,leg stretches, push ups etc etc, punch and kick drills, then forms etc etc and light sparring at the end etc etc etc

-hand stands...>_< kaya pala mag handstand just a matter i cant find my center yet sa handstand...and longest i can last is around 15 seconds >_< ( then later on build up to a head stand etc etc)

sifu: wanna try a hand stand?

me: i never done a hand stand...kaya ba

sifu: mukhang kaya naman...*then explains paano*

me:*then i try it* O_O i can actually do it

sifu: kaya mo naman pala eh you more than strong enough to carry your weight for now though hindi ka lng sanay e balance lng sarili mo habang naka baliktad *sifu holding waist to make sure i dont fall off or to keep me balanced muna since yeah hindi pa sanay*


teka kuha lng ako coffee then kungyari bibitawan niya etc etc

me: T_T

-then the usual form drills etc but this time with weights little by little etc etc

-quarter staff drills etc etc (new quarterstaff drills looks likes some of the move set for kilik from soul calibur...or that mist of pandaria:wow thing)
eeer yey and neigh training

got moved to thursdays

Short Background of current

sifu:
current sifu used to join mga international competions and
such both for combat and exhibition and won a few medals
the guy is also married has a daughter which also joins
competitions paminsan minsan

the guy is roughly 40+ but moves like a damn ninja O_O
the guy could do backflips very easily, fancy looking
high kicks easily etc etc butobviously just like any
martial artist would say pag dating sa laban XD keep it
simple..forget about looking fancy XD kaya nga separate ang
combat and exhibition

yey cause doing too well in a way got moved to "harder" 1 on 1 training with sifu


neigh...obviously harder
training >_< but yeah of
course to get better also
means slightly harder training
etc etc then gets harder bit
by bit


knowledge in human anatomy (obviously since i do character art for 2d or 3d i
have to know human anatomy) sure comes in handy in
fighting XD

2 of the new throws sifu

thought looks really close to master tigress throw actually and what makes sifu happy he
didnt have to teach the full throw kahit half way lng for some of the throws

example A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4lQlEdHjso

1.04-1.05

sifu does the throw/arm lock, explains only half way of the
throw/arm lock

me: eeer so what do i do from

here?

sifu: figure it out, you do human art right? remember your
human anatomy knowlegde

me: *so while thinking in my head...so i guess if i
remember my human anatomy 101...the arm till shoulder is
not suppose to bend in that direction so if my guess is right if i move my arm up like
etc etc....Does the rest of throw and low leg sweep to
trip sifu down while hes off balanced*

sifu: bingo!...though supposively you just have to
push me off XD the leg sweep thing was a nice touch didnt
expect you'd do that

me: id figure na off-off balance ka na from the throw
thing and habang nakatalikod ka from the push might as well
sweep your legs

1.14-1.15 (this i remember doing something similar but
instead of throwing his momentom upward...pababa na
lng ei at least the floor was carpeted XD) to one of my
bronie friends before nung phcon2...well he was bored and

wanted to quick spar

B.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IB3lgsgcloM

2:47

teachs only half of the
technique...and had to figure
it out the rest

me:does halfway of it

*then thinking in my head...since you punched in that direction if my stock
knowledge is right...if i twist your arm in that direction + using your own
momentum against you + noticed your leg positioning is a bit
loose on the other side* does how i think the throw should be done...sifu falls off
balance...O_O i actually got it right

sifu: (while sifu is on the ground) nakuha mo... see i
didnt have to teach you other half of the technique you
figured out the rest on your own

as for kicking...

goods news

as for kicking feels easier to kick now...the power is getting there na daw and at
least know when to kick na daw sa sparring matches notice ni sifu...i just need to work
more on leg flexibility...my kicking height has improved quite a bit in these past
months yey...i wonder how much it will improve more in a few
months hmm

now the things i need to work

on...

i still have a bit of a hard time kicking during the peak
of my jump...

separately

ung talon nagagawa ko na without the kicktapos pag kick lng without the jump kaya naman medyo mataas
napag pinagsama na ung talon and kick yeah medyo nahihirapan
ako XD

pero more of hindi pa sanaysabi naman ni sifu dati din
naman siya when he started out he wasnt a very natural
flexible person...as he put it he had worse leg flexibility
than me when he started out

D. i can now do...not yet a full cartwheel i still need at
least on arm to support my whole weight when i do a
cartwheel and just keeping back straight na lng during
the middle of the cartwheelat least good news kunting
pang practice na lng daw just keeping my back and legs
straight during the middle of the cartwheel
sifu can do it without any arm support and his back and legs
fully straight XD

E. sifu tried teaching me how to do chinese get up/kick up
thing nun 2nd day hard training manage to learn in a
day XD yey...well almost...on somewhat a bouncy surface
(like a bed or ung track flooring is a bit bouncy dun
sa xavier nagawana ko naman siya) sana medyo nagagawa ko
naman...but yeah on something like a wooden floor i cant
seem to do it though XD...i guess kulang pa but at least
sifu happy i got in a day XD


D. some of the new forms sifu is teaching looks similar to
master tigress or rock lee's movement or the champ/monk
class sa ragna XD

so yeah beginning to move closer to a mix/cross between
master tigress and rock lee pag
(of course without those humanly impossible super high
jumps XD ) unarmed :p