Mental Repository (M.R.)

[zero_kanipan]

MASSIVE RANT

so fucking sick of people who keeps giving me the same fucking advice to move out. what?! you don't fucking think i fucking thought of that already?! do you have any idea of the dynamics in the house i fucking live in? me leaving is exactly the fucking thing the assholes want me to do so they can reign supreme; enslave and stress out mom until she dies from a heart attack; beat up and kill my niece because "that's just how they are when they get angry." i have plans to move out. i have plans to take mom and my niece with me when i do so, but it's gonna take a fucking long time. why? because instead of being out there looking for jobs, signing up with TESDA to get new skills, doing work from home stuff, im busy doing all the chores, and taking care of mom coz the assholes would do nothing to help and everything to antagonize everyone. my anxiety disorder that's caused me to fail each and every fucking interview didn't just pop out of nothing. it's the result of living with fucking assholes these past 20 years. it's the result of all the "help" and "advice" people who say move out give that actually stressed me out more than help. if you really want to fucking help, stop with the fucking advice and actually fucking do something. at the very least you can put a bullet between my eyes.