11-13-2011, 02:20 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-13-2011, 02:23 PM by spartansgestugatenso.)
wow as soon as a saw this thread i read through 80% of all your post and stuff and i always wanted to talk to people about the dreams i have but never had people to talk to about
one thing i keep having dreams about is something that happens like a day after like i would sit in school and think "i could of swore that this happen before" than i realized it seemed like my days are just replaying over and over again in my dreams because my tommorow is my yesterday if that makes sense.like get ready for school, take the bus for a 45 minutes (if im lucky) go rage to myself about the boundless ignorance of people,do home work at lunch, go home and sleep till tommorow and repeat.lol im kinda of ranting but anyway i had a really wierd dream this past friday that made me realize theres a lot of shit i need to do and stop being a grumpy/lazey/bitch about things
i dreamnt about this girl i really liked at my highschool and i was kratos from God of War (minus the white skin) and had told her about my crush on her,then oddly enough the dude that stole my potenial first girl friend in middle school had came out of nowere and called a bunch of hollows from bleach to eat me lol.i fight them off and a big giant monster and a bunch of soilders came out of nowere and told me no could ever love you and you must die, i was like "WTF" and "you bout to die" and at the same i turn into some rage of the spartans/force unleashed/vasto lorde ichigo/evagilon thingy/jeuty from Zone of The Enders thing and killed everything. but then after expaning all my energy i layed there on the ground unable to move with my ps3 and childhood toys, bioncles as the girl i have a crush on stared at me with a scared look in her eyes and she walked off into a dark corrador with that dude from my middle school,as i layed ready to cry trying to pick myself and the things that made me happy up ......
i woke up in the same postition with like three tears going down my cheeks.............. fucking weird isnt it?
the funny thing is on thursday the girl that i have a crush on told me "i never see you smile or happy, your always serious or angry" than later that day i was talking to my classmates and they were saying i give off a "threatening pressence" and a girl behide me told me "your scary, you walk like the terminator, like you want to kill someone" all i did was
ssssssooooooooooo...... whoever read this whole thing i really want your input on this my family is out of the question with talking about this stuff lol
one thing i keep having dreams about is something that happens like a day after like i would sit in school and think "i could of swore that this happen before" than i realized it seemed like my days are just replaying over and over again in my dreams because my tommorow is my yesterday if that makes sense.like get ready for school, take the bus for a 45 minutes (if im lucky) go rage to myself about the boundless ignorance of people,do home work at lunch, go home and sleep till tommorow and repeat.lol im kinda of ranting but anyway i had a really wierd dream this past friday that made me realize theres a lot of shit i need to do and stop being a grumpy/lazey/bitch about things
i dreamnt about this girl i really liked at my highschool and i was kratos from God of War (minus the white skin) and had told her about my crush on her,then oddly enough the dude that stole my potenial first girl friend in middle school had came out of nowere and called a bunch of hollows from bleach to eat me lol.i fight them off and a big giant monster and a bunch of soilders came out of nowere and told me no could ever love you and you must die, i was like "WTF" and "you bout to die" and at the same i turn into some rage of the spartans/force unleashed/vasto lorde ichigo/evagilon thingy/jeuty from Zone of The Enders thing and killed everything. but then after expaning all my energy i layed there on the ground unable to move with my ps3 and childhood toys, bioncles as the girl i have a crush on stared at me with a scared look in her eyes and she walked off into a dark corrador with that dude from my middle school,as i layed ready to cry trying to pick myself and the things that made me happy up ......
i woke up in the same postition with like three tears going down my cheeks.............. fucking weird isnt it?
the funny thing is on thursday the girl that i have a crush on told me "i never see you smile or happy, your always serious or angry" than later that day i was talking to my classmates and they were saying i give off a "threatening pressence" and a girl behide me told me "your scary, you walk like the terminator, like you want to kill someone" all i did was
ssssssooooooooooo...... whoever read this whole thing i really want your input on this my family is out of the question with talking about this stuff lol
what do i fight for? i have nothing to fight for but i fight i LIVE because it is my only defiance to what ever gods may be for making my life a living hell
